Delivery Day

As I am quickly approaching my delivery date

SEPTEMBER 10TH

This is whats on my mind:

After having my first child via c-section

I always beat myself up.  Feeling inadequate.

When I found out I was pregnant with my second I called

several different doctors offices to

see if they did VBACs.

The most profound statement came from the receptionist

that answered the phone--I'm sure she could tell from my

wavering voice I needed some peace:

She said:  "Honey--how you have a baby does not determine what kind

of mother you are.....good or bad.....you have 18 years to prove

what kind of a mom you are."

Although I gained some comfort in this.....it was not all comforting.

I completely agreed with her statement.

Would a woman who could not have a natural born child who chose to adopt

be judged as negatively as someone who has had a c-section?

I doubt it.

So now as I approach my 4th (yes 4th) c-section.....I view things

differently.  Every birth story is special.....no matter how

that baby is born!

This birth story was beautiful to me--and was in a hospital and

via c-section:

So for me.......SEPTEMBER 10

will be a beautiful day of welcoming our 4th child

into our family--as she will be our last.

I am just grateful that I can say I've been blessed with 4 babies--

who cares how I had them....they are each

a gift from God that I'd never thought I'd have!

Cathy