As I am quickly approaching my delivery date
This is whats on my mind:
After having my first child via c-section
I always beat myself up. Feeling inadequate.
When I found out I was pregnant with my second I called
several different doctors offices to
see if they did VBACs.
The most profound statement came from the receptionist
that answered the phone--I'm sure she could tell from my
wavering voice I needed some peace:
She said: "Honey--how you have a baby does not determine what kind
of mother you are.....good or bad.....you have 18 years to prove
what kind of a mom you are."
Although I gained some comfort in this.....it was not all comforting.
I completely agreed with her statement.
Would a woman who could not have a natural born child who chose to adopt
be judged as negatively as someone who has had a c-section?
I doubt it.
So now as I approach my 4th (yes 4th) c-section.....I view things
differently. Every birth story is special.....no matter how
that baby is born!
This birth story was beautiful to me--and was in a hospital and
So for me.......SEPTEMBER 10
will be a beautiful day of welcoming our 4th child
into our family--as she will be our last.
I am just grateful that I can say I've been blessed with 4 babies--
who cares how I had them....they are each
a gift from God that I'd never thought I'd have!